Wednesday, November 25, 2009
3:06 AM
Hi.
It's Joyce here.
Sometimes I just wonder..
If time would ever slow down it's pace, will I then be able to catch up?
Many things come and go,
Pass by,
and sometimes, when we don't hold on tight to the things we cherish with all our heart,
it will move on and leave you behind.
Hurt. Wounded. Unprotected.
But that's life.
That's why I've been telling her,
"Cherish what you have and live for yourself, for just this once."
Wasn't this the reason why we had ran away in the first place?
But you, it seems to be your nature that you sacrifice everything,
till you have nothing left.
I may sound as if I'm encouraging you to be selfish.
But that's how it goes to protect yourself from getting hurt all the time.
I understand, you feel you have interfered enough, it's time you should leave.
But that's not true. It's not. Because you didn't interfere with anything.
It just that you met the right person, at just the wrong time.
You feel as if you have disappointed a great friend.
I know, to have someone else that is close to you like the same person,
It's fucked up and wrong.
But do you think just by hiding all your true feelings, it can save everyone from misery?
No, it can't.
Because when you try to hide it the more I feel angry at myself.
I ask myself,
Why is it that you're protecting me from feeling sad when you are the one who needs all the protection?
Why do you have to put on that fake smile when you just don't feel like smiling?
Why is it that you have to be so protective against other people and not let your real emotions overwhelm you?
Why is it that you have to cover up all the wounds in your heart to protect the people you love?
Because that's not how it goes. It's just wrong to do that.
When facing the people you love, the people you trust, you are supposed to be real.
Because if you do that, that's not love.
That's just pretence.
Because you feel with your heart, and not your brain.
Not your brain that will slowly plan out and weigh out the rights and wrongs.
There's no right or wrong in love.
I'm telling this all to you because I love you.
I love you a lot, Tiffany.
You want everyone to just be ignorant and ignore how you feel.
You know its impossible because we all care.
We all do. I miss you. The real you.
The one that will cry at the slightest things.
The one who will cry at the smallest things.
The one who will cry when they watch a single part of a korean drama.
The one with tears.
I can remember, When I was abandoned, alone and afraid,
You were the one.
You made me realise how great it felt to be loved and cherished by someone.That I was actually of an importance.
That I actually was placed somewhere in your heart.
That I played a part in your life.
But it ended so early,
Too little to late.
You three-lettered bastard.
Neversaygoodbyebecauseyou'retheonlyoneforme.