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TIFFANY(!)
The full name is Tiffany Kim.
A mix of Korean-Chinese-Japanese.
Sixteen this year.
I get older every 6th May.
Pink and Black is ♥
Inhabited in Institut Le Rosey.
Single; Complicated

STACY(!)
The full name is Stacy Kwon.
A mix of Korean-Chinese-Japanese.
Sixteen this year.
I get older every 21st May.
Blue and Black is ♥
Inhabited in Institut Le Rosey.
Single; Carefree

CLOE(!)
The full name is Cloe Ahn.
A mix of Korean-Chinese.
Sixteen this year.
I get older every 31st May.
Orange and Purple is ♥
Inhabited in Institut Le Rosey.
Single; Over it!

MIKEY(!)
The full name is Danielle Mikey James.
Just pure French
this year.
I get older every 7th July.
Black and Silver is♥
Inhabited in Institut Le Rosey.
Attached; Happy

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Wants & Wishes

Wish for Peace, Love & Joy; Cliche?
Wish for Everyone to be happy
Wish for Black Nokia E72
Wish for F21 Metal Frame Wallet
I want Cake, Candy, Chocolate.!

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"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do"

Tiffany here.

Been updating alot, no? Heh. Yesterday, I wondered into the woods. Walking alone helps i guess. Walking around I realise everyone, meaning the animals, had company. Wondered if they were laughing down at me being alone. Well, sometimes in life you just have to walk alone no?

Life is getting more messed up as i emerge myself into my mood swings. I am sorry guys if I take out my anger on anyone of you. I am sorry, really. Messed up Fany. Rare to most people but " messed up Fany " lived inside me since Grade 2. And yeah, i guess i am not normal.

I realised that these days I run away alot. Whenever I am with Kea, Shawn or Nate, I run away. From what? I don't know. I am just running away. Deep in my heart, its telling me its denial. Then I think. "Denial?" Of what? .... I don't know. Another habit of mine these days is saying " I am okay / Don't worry. / I'll be fine. " Ohh, whatever.

Yesterday, I went to the lake. God. I never realised how breathtaking the lake can be. Le Rosey was my Alma Mater but I never really took notice of all the lovely things here. As i was sitting by the lake, I looked into the water and thought to myself, how nice it would be to just be in there. Deep down. Ohh no, the damsel in distress Fany is back. Not good!

Guess who i saw at by the Lake? Erik. Yes, Erik Kevin Night. The trainee teacher. And also the youngest teacher on campus. Only 17. The hot topic this week of the school, Erik Kevin Night. He saw me and called me to sit by him and asked whats wrong. I looked at him with a suprised face and asked him what does he mean by "whats wrong?". He said he knew something was up when he saw my face. I stared and him wondering, How did he tell?! Well, even Kea, Shawn, Brian, Stacy, Mikey and Cloe took sometime to regsiter the fact that something was up. But Erik Kevin Night just looked at me and could tell something was wrong? Unbelievable. I told him nothing was wrong and we just continued sitting there in silence. Not awkward silence. It was comfortable silence.

Sat there until Kea and Shawn made me come back. Left unwillingly with one last glance at Erik seeing that he was asleep i left my cardigan with him. And NO. I do not like Erik that way. He is a teacher. I only thought that maybe I've found someone that can just read me like a book. I feel strangely at ease with this teacher. God. It sounds like a drama. Lol.

Can't seem to sleep these days. Every night, crying myself to sleep i repeat to myself " I can't, I shan't and I won't." This feeling is wrong. Someone, anyone put me to sleep forever?

"What happens when he's your prince charming, but you're not his cinderella?"

Love, Fany

Tiffany here.

Life is Complicated. Never thought I would say that. But yes, Life is complicated.
I am not saying I am not blessed to have people to care for me. But, I don't want to hurt people.
All the friends I have around me are just like family. I don't want to hurt people.
As selfish as I may seem, I ultimately just don't want to have an ending whereby anyone is hurt.
I have been very selfish, no?

Hurting people seem to be my speciality. I hurt Kea, Jared, Brian, Shawn. Everyone.
Gosh. I am so sinful, no? All my fault. God, now i sound like a damsel in distress.
Whats wrong with me these days? Stacy, Mikey and Cloe are all worried that I'll be captured by Shawn again. I don't know how to reply Shawn and Brian. And Kea.... nevermind.

Life just ain't going smoothly for me. Neither is it for anyone right? Shall not rant on and on about my problems. There are much greater things people go through right?
Maybe. Just maybe, i should do the disappearing trick I did years ago. It might work. Just Maybe...

On a brighter note, I have completed a few papers. English down. Calculas Down. Chinese Down. World History Down. And another week to go! :D Praying for the French Lit paper to be easy!


아프다고 말하면 정말 아플 것
같아서슬프다고 말하면 눈물이 날 것
같아서그냥 웃지 그냥 웃지 그냥
웃지그런데 사람들이 왜 우냐고 물어

Maybe, Just maybe, if i disappeared, Everyone will be happy.

Whats this mixed feeling inside me?

Nono, I can't, I shan't and I won't.

" If Life is a box of chocolates, God must have gave me only dark ones. "

Love, Fany.