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TIFFANY(!)
The full name is Tiffany Kim.
A mix of Korean-Chinese-Japanese.
Sixteen this year.
I get older every 6th May.
Pink and Black is ♥
Inhabited in Institut Le Rosey.
Single; Complicated

STACY(!)
The full name is Stacy Kwon.
A mix of Korean-Chinese-Japanese.
Sixteen this year.
I get older every 21st May.
Blue and Black is ♥
Inhabited in Institut Le Rosey.
Single; Carefree

CLOE(!)
The full name is Cloe Ahn.
A mix of Korean-Chinese.
Sixteen this year.
I get older every 31st May.
Orange and Purple is ♥
Inhabited in Institut Le Rosey.
Single; Over it!

MIKEY(!)
The full name is Danielle Mikey James.
Just pure French
this year.
I get older every 7th July.
Black and Silver is♥
Inhabited in Institut Le Rosey.
Attached; Happy

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Wants & Wishes

Wish for Peace, Love & Joy; Cliche?
Wish for Everyone to be happy
Wish for Black Nokia E72
Wish for F21 Metal Frame Wallet
I want Cake, Candy, Chocolate.!

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Catch me when i fall - Ashlee Simpson

Is anybody out there?
Does anybody see?
That when the lights are off some thing's killing me.
I know it seems like people care,
Cause they're always around me.
But when the day is done and everybody runs

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's so hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Sometimes lonelinessis just a part of me

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Looking back. Again.
Why do I keep looking back?
I realise my world was and will only be complete with you.
Why did I realise this late?
I wished you were here.
Why didn't I treasure you when you were here?
I wanted us to become forever.
Forever does not exist anymore, does it?
All those times we had together without anyone else, Just us.
No more "Just us" right?
Those days we stare at the stars together for hours.
Stars? I hate them cause I am looking at the same ones as you, but without you.
Those days where my mornings are always filled with trying to wake you up.
No more waking you up, no? I wake up, staring at the ceiling.
Those nights where I dragged you , drunk, back to bed.
I don't have to rights to anymore right?


Those days you were my only shoulder to lean on.
I have no one to lean onto anymore. I struggle to stand straight, by myself.
Those days where you piggy-backed me when i simply felt tired walking.
Piggy-backs? No more.
Those nights you stayed up late just to help me with work.
I do everything alone now.
Those nights where you tucked me to bed and stayed with me until I fell asleep.
I get myself onto the bed and cry myself to sleep.

Those days, where you still cared.
You care for her now. And thats great.



When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.

With love,
Tiffany

Tiffany here. Its been sometime since I blogged ehh? Seems like Stace, Mikey and Cloe are keeping the blog alive. (: I wonder if people read my posts. But well, I just want to pen down things that have happened and my thoughts. I've been busy these days. But I am enjoying this busy feeling. Not enough time to use for thinking all those stupid things.

Btw, did i tell you guys I am blogging with my lappie next to the lake. How I love this place. Almost no one ever comes here. And that's great at that. I like practicing Ballet here. (: Every time I want to shout out load about how I am great and happy, words just remind stuck. I'll try, one day, i will stand proud shouting and telling the world I am happy. Alone.

Even though Erik made things turn weird. And all the guys left. But he still sticks by me no matter what. Its nice of him. But its difficult to accept his feelings. I just cant. He is a nice guy. He can find a nicer girl. Brian too. He is a nice guy. He can find a nicer girl. Shawn too. Nate too. All nice people. Always so ready to give in to me. Always being there. Thank you guys. ILY.
And he, already has a nice girl. (':

I am sorry, Erik. I really am. I'll try to forget him. No, I WILL forget him. But whether I can accept another? I cant be sure. I am sorry Shawn. I am sorry Nathan. I am sorry Brian. I am sorry everyone. I am sorry Rainie. I am sorry. Very, very sorry.

Well, I am gonna be happy. But this is tiring. Very. But its fine. Its for the sake of the two of them. (: If they are happy together, I am happy. Lets post some happy things. I love the little children I am looking after. They are super cute! I want children like that if I ever have children!



This is EunMi. Coincidentally she is my mother's friend's daughter! And she is under my care. She's a really sweet girl. She saw me cry the other day. * how embarrassing * And she came up to me and offered to "teach the person that made me cry a lesson ". LOL. Obviously i told Eunmi I am fine and that sometimes in certain situations, leaving it to be might be a good choice.



This is Adriel. I took this picture this morning when i brought him to the stables for his horse riding class. He was so reluctant this morning! But after he finished that class he told me " Big sister Fany!! I wamma ( he cant say wanna :O ) ride the horse tomowwow ( he cant saw tomorrow too. :O ). " He's such a cutie pie. xD Every morning when I go find his to bring him to class he always goes " Big sister Fany! Imma gib ya a pink candy! ". Sweet ain't he? :D

Okay there is no other way I can contact you so I hope you still read this blog. Rmk, Eunmi and Adriel are looking for you. They told me to tell you they miss their " Pappi ". Do call them. They miss you.

I need to thank my besties who never fail to stand up for me.
Mikey, Cloe, Stacy, Joyce.

Thank you Stace for looking after me even though i am supposed to be the oldest.
Thank you Stace for always being there when I need help with anything.
Thank you Stace for being like the other me ever since we were babies.
Thank you Stace for keeping a clear head no matter what we are about to face.
Thank you Stace, for being who you are.

Thank you Mikey for the hug every morning to reassure me I still am here with you guys.
Thank you Mikey for those movie trips you always make us go to, to make me not think so much.
Thank you Mikey for those motivating msges you sent to me before every class.
Thank you Mikey for always trying to drag me out of my room to go out for a walk.
Thank you Mikey, for being who you are.

Thank you Cloe for always being the energy bunny amongst us.
Thank you Cloe for always asking me out to watch your games.
Thank you Cloe for those little gifts, be it a smiley sticker to new clothes.
Thank you Cloe for asking out to race snails and laughing our heads off.
Thank you Cloe, for being who you are.

Thank you Joyce for the long distance calls to make sure I am alright.
Thank you Joyce for always counting me in to anything you've planned.
Thank you Joyce for always giving me words of affirmation.
Thank you Joyce for those spa sessions where we could talk about anything under the sun.
Thank you Joyce, for being who you are.

And definitely I have to thank Ian, Jonny, Bobbi, Mitsu, Shawn, Nate, Brian, Yiting, Kim, Meow, Rainie.

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Ian, nothing needs to be said between us right?
You know I have got your back.
I will be here no matter what.
If you are tired you know Tiffany will always let you put down that mask and let out out feelings.
I read your blog Ian. You are just like a older brother to me.
So please, promise me you let me be there for you?
I wont ask you to promise to cheer up, promise to be happy.
All I need is a promise to let me be there for you.
ILY Ian.

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Can I just keep you in the corner of my heart and tell everyone you are gone from my heart?
I don't know;
Can I put on this smile and walk forward with everyone else?
I don't know;
Can I still accept another to replace what you are to me?
I don't know;
Can I still be who I was?
I don't know;

Looking at those pretty little gifts you bought;
Looking at the pink bedspread that you said you hated but have always lied on;
Looking at the childhood pictures that were filled to the brim with memories;
Looking at the window you always climbed out from;
Looking at the little straw hearts you gave me everytime I did well for something, ever since I was 5;
Looking at my first ballet flats that you bought for me;

Looking at the past and not moving forward.




"Sometimes you dont realize how much you care for someone until they stop caring for you."

xoxo,
Tiffany

Okay. Stacy here. Obviously.
Exams have ended awhile ago. Isn't that great? (:
And dreadfully our results were released. Shyt.
We scored fairly well. OBVIOUSLY. Hah! Okay, nvm.
Before I start rambling on about how I am starting to hate some ppl, I should totally tell you guys our results. Ohhh, Yes i am. No matter how much you are gonna stop me, CLOE. :O

Stacy Results ( Its pretty BLUE )

English : 80/100 Gahh! D:
Calculus: 68/100 Its considered good in my books!
Biology: 81/100
Chemistry: 70/100
Physics: 78/100
Chinese: 71/100
Korean: 84/100
Spanish: 52/100 Shyt!
Spanish Literature: 49/100 Shyt x2
History: 75/100
Environmental Systems: 90/100
Performing Arts: Grade A
Physical Ed: Grade C
Extra curriculum ( Cello, Drumming, Piano, Violin ): Grade A

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Tiffany's Results

English: 82/100
Calculus: 69/100
Biology: 79/100
Chemistry: 76/100
Physics: 73/100
Chinese: 70/100
Korean: 90/100
French: 53/100
French Literature: 72/100 Tiff says " Thank you "
History: 86/100
Business & Management: 78/100
Music: Grade B
Physical Ed: Grade B
Extra Curriculum ( Ballet, Hip hop + Street Jazz, Choir ): Grade A

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Cloe's Results

English: 87/100
Calculus: 63/100
Biology: 76/100
Chemistry: 73/100
Physics: 71/100
Chinese: 52/100
Korean: 77/100
German: 80/100
French Literature: 48/100 Cloe says " Well, no one was teaching me! "
Geography: 68/100
Environmental Systems: 72/100
Visual Art: Grade B
Physical Ed: Grade A
Extra Curriculum ( Soccer, Hockey, Horse Riding, Ice Skating ): Grade A

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Mikey's Results

English: 71/100
Calculus: 79/100
Biology: 68/100
Chemistry: 80/100
Physics: 71/100
Korean: 57/100 Mikey says " Thank you Fany, Stace, Cloe for the late night tutoring! "
French: 91/100
French Literature: 77/100
Geography: 69/100
Economics: 66/100
Music: Grade B
Physical Ed: Grade B
Extra Curriculum ( Baseball, Hockey, Soccer, Martial Arts ) : Grade A

Okay. So these are our results. Its alright. My parents are happy about it. Well, THEY BETTER BE. Hah! I studied alright. So did the girls. Seeing our test papers reminds me how we took our exams with the guys and also studied together with them. Brings back memories. How our late night sessions always ends with only Fany and Rmk studying French Lit together. With the rest of us knocked out and sleeping with books on our faces.

Surprisingly, I passed Spanish. :O No Kidding yo. I was lyke " OMGAHH. " Hah! And Fany passed French Lit. You must feel really proud of her huh. Cloe passed Chinese! Thats like a MIRACLE yo. And we are most definitely MOSTMOSTMOST proud of Mikey! She passed..... KOREAN! * dancing around and around with the girls *

Enough of exams. Brings the mood down. ): Wells, I tell ya I am very worried about the girls yo. I am always like " Mummy " out of the 4 girls. And the never ending worries is just part of me. Fany is just being overly happy and hyper. She crams more classes. more extra curriculum. more dance practices. She even volunteered to teach the little kids at the Junior Campus. She is just in denial just like what Mikey says. Trying to tire herself so she doesn't think about things. Though it seems like its not working very well. And why so I say so? She is always crying when she is alone. In front of Mikey, Cloe and I, She tries to put on that smile for us. Not gonna work FanyLove. D:

As for Mikey and Cloe, I am just worried they burst and do something in protection of Fany. I don't blame them for wanting to do or say certain things to certain people, cause I want to too. But this is just not rational. Henceforth not a good thing to do. Mikey, Cloe and I share the same thoughts about the same people. We want to just scream straight at some people's face and tell them to stop trying to act miserable and not thinking of Fany's feelings. All they knows, is how the world revolves around them. Insensitive much?

Oh Jesus, Nevermind. I am gonna channel my stress to doing YOGA. Going to find the girls now to do Yoga. Mikey is extremely inacceptive of Yoga. ): I am gonna make them Yoga with me! Hmph. YOGA IS ♥. My new HOBBY.

Okay. I dont want to continue ranting. So, Annyeonghygasaeyo. BaiBai.

With the love as large as an elephant,
Stacy♥

Bonjour outside people. First time blogging on Tiffany's blogger but it is ours now ^_^ If you people do not know who this is, I will stab you to death =D I really hate school nowadays because there is so much going on and I cannot concentrate one bit. I kind of dread going online too because I do not want to see certain people as their attitudes really makes me really angry.

On a brighter note, Tiffany has more smiles these days ^_^! BUT! Those smiles do not seem genuine )= I am guessing that she is slipping into a very important stage of love called "Denial". =O! Stace, Cloe and I are really worried about her and it is all "their" fault. I wished that the both of them never met her, they have caused so much heart ache for Tiffie. Damn you =O

On the brightest note, Jonny's going to get a lot of CLOTHES for the four of us! ^_^ And I shall depict their reactions towards Jonny's "kindness".
ME: I never knew Jonny was so nice! =O *Size 2*
CLOE: HO MY GOSH HO MY GOSH! *Squeals and rolls around* Size 2 please! :D
STACE: Wow, thank you so much, Jon. *Grins* Size 2 too.
TIFFY: *Nods and smiles* Tell Jonny that I said thank you. *Size 2*
And I told Jonny the sizes, even Tiffany's ^_^
I am also getting Jonny's Avenged Sevenfold teeshirt! =O! Merci.

I had his classes today and he acted like nothing has happened. Also, I feel that he is being way too nice towards Tiffany and making the other person look like an unconcerned freak. On the other hand, Slimey's being really weird, maybe he's pregnant =O! Damn~

Pay close attention to his tummy! =O He also has menopause! =O! I think he is probably just depressed about this situation. What a sweet guy. *Barfs*


To Cloe:
Hey you mad, mad girl.
We shall stick together no matter what happens from here! =D!
Let's catch snails and slugs together and race them.
After that, we can put them into Slimey's clothes ^_^!
I love you tons my hyper bunny! =D

To Stace:
Hey you, indescribable-stoic-yet-hyper-girl *-*
Thank you for being so rational throughout this entire situation!
What will we do without you? Huh huh?!?!
You are like the tree trunk in winter.
But I still love you, our personal tree trunk.

To Tiffy:
HELLO our lovely Tiffany, please do smile more. ^_^
And the 4 of us, including that Slimey will cheer you up =O
I miss the old you, sweetheart =O!
And I am going to get it back! =D Okay, Tiffy? Okay, good.
So Tiffany, do not let them get to you.
You have not caused any harm, do not worry.
Stop making yourself the villain in this "fairytale" when in actual facts, they are the ones.
I love you tons, a'ights? =D! I am always here for you. ^_^

Lastly, please do not try to be the knight in shining armour for Tiffany when you are just a worm wrapped in... Ehm, tissue paper. Yeah, that is correct. ^_^ Leave her alone, merci beaucoup. Au Revoir outside people! Bye!

Memories replaying in my mind like a black and white movie;
Sentences replaying in my mind like an old broken record;
Every photo, every letter reminds me of days back then;
Every old voice message, every old message saved on my phone reminds me of your presence; Every step I take reminds me of the long walks we've taken;
Every old piece of paper you scribbled on reminds me of countless days you stayed up for me, helping me with work.
Every song you played for me, every song you sang for me is my lullaby;

Tiffany here.